Monday, June 30, 2014

Full of Wonder by Nevin Trammell

Wonder is a word that's loaded.  There's a child-like wonder full of joyful curiosity.  Like, "Hey I wonder what that tastes like", or "I wonder what's on the other side of that hill", or "I wonder what she's like??"

Then as we age "wonder" can be packed with worry, as in "If I eat that I wonder if it will upset my digestion?", or "I wonder if I should take the stairs or the elevator?" or "I wonder if I really could sell my house, leave my adult children, friends, familiar territory where I was born and went to elementary school, high school, college and graduate school, worked, and lived practically my whole life and move to Asheville?"

When I first walked into the Men in Transition class in Spring 2012, these were the kind of wondering questions on my mind.  The worrying kind of wonder.  I had not moved to Asheville yet.  I was on an eight week exploratory adventure.  After visiting here for years, "I wondered" what it would be like to live here more than 3-4 days at a time.  Long enough to do laundry and take out the trash and pay the bills.  Not just be a tourist.  As much as I loved it here, I wrestled deeply with the prospects of moving.  The uprooting. The loss of familiarity.  The going through all the stuff.



After others in the class told their stories in the Men in Transition class the facilitator and founder of Men's Wisdom Works wrote various issues on the board.  "Retirement", "Aging", "Letting go of Roles", "Relationships".  Finally after telling my story, he summarized my issue and wrote it for all to see:  "Shit or get off the pot."

That pretty much said it.

So, here I am.

Being a poet, or what I like to call a writer of very, very short stories that often rhyme, I still have that childlike, even sly kind of wonder in me.  Sometimes, though, the worry-wonder can take over.  I'm glad I have Men's Wisdom Works to keep my sly wonder fresh and my worry-wonder in check as I build my life in Asheville. 

Here's a "very very short story" for you:

One Man's Journey to MWW

I ain't no genius and
I ain't no fool
I've pondered things
I've done some school
I've had my head in the clouds
I've had my head under
I've dodged some lightin'
And lived with thunder

It just occurred to me

I wonder


Nevin Compton Trammell


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  2. Well written, Nevin. Hope I never see a day without wonder.

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